I don’t even really know where to start with this post. Being that I like organization, I think I’ll do a timeline format.
June 2013 - Carter and I decide we are going to put our house up for sale. We work on getting it looking nice, and plan on moving in with his parents during the selling/looking for a new house period. Who really wants to be ready at the drop of a hat to show their home to potential buyers with a 2 year old, 6 month old, and 2 dogs under one roof? Not this gal.
July 2013 - Move in with in-laws, put house on the market. Showings every day. So thankful to be out of the house solely for the fact that those daily showings would most likely interrupt nap time, which would most likely make me highly irritable.
August – October 2013 - Still almost daily showings on our house. 2 contracts that have fallen through. Discovery of foundation repairs needed ($$$). More work done and finally under contract again.
November 2013 - Closing gets pushed back due to plumbing issues from foundation repairs. Are we ever going to sell this place?? By this point we’ve found and lost houses we’ve loved because we were still tied up with our current home. Carter and I take an awesome, and much needed, gettaway to Colorado. While there, we visit a church where some friends lead worship. At the airport, leaving Denver, both Carter and I talk about what it would be like to work with this church and join their ministry. When we get home, we realize this is more than just an “itch” and we begin praying daily about whether or not this is something that God is leading us towards.
December 2013 - Still praying. The realization of leaving behind jobs and family and friends is heavy on our hearts. Our house finally sells, but we don’t pursue looking at any houses here. We just wait.
January 2014 - Still praying. We are invited to come up to Colorado to check things out and for Carter to get to play (guitar) again with the worship team there. Our trip is great. We take Jace with us, drive around the area, meet people. Throughout the entire time there we still weren’t sure which direction God was leading us, which was strait up annoying. Don’t you sometimes just want God to give you a clear answer? I was hoping something like a man randomly coming up to Carter and offering him a well paying, flexible schedule job with great insurance as a sign from the heavens. Is that too much to ask?? No “sign” was given. We got on the plane confused as ever.
What happened next is interesting. We got home and got the boys settled and in bed. Then Carter and I went out to talk about everything while his parents were at home with our kids. God was beginning to confirm in both our hearts that Colorado is where He was leading us, but making that actual commitment seemed like such a big step! It didn’t make sense, if you look at it in the eyes of the world. Carter had a great job here, no job in Colorado. We have our parents and other family here, and no family in Colorado. Carter said, “I feel like God is asking me to just LEAP. Take a leap of faith.” When he spoke those words, it was like God was speaking it to my heart as well and I knew what we needed to to. We just sort of looked at each other like, are we crazy?? Probably. But God must have something big for our family.
Walking in Faith
The Bible teaches that God has specific plans for his children. Plans to prosper them, and not to harm them. Plans to give them a future and a hope.
God has plans for us in Colorado. Ways in which He has gifted us, passions that we have, all align with specific needs at the church we are going to. Funny thing is, we didn’t know that when we made the LEAP and said “yes” to God. Sometimes having faith in God means following Him even when you don’t quite know where you’re going. A few days after Carter and I made this decision, a dense fog came over our part of town. I was driving home late one night after spending time with some girlfriends, and I could barely see but a few feet in front of me. It was just enough to keep me on the road and going in the right direction. While driving, I thought about how God sometimes tells us GO, but doesn’t immediately deliver all of the details. He gives us just enough light, just enough direction, to take the next step. Then once you take that step, you can see enough to take the following step. And so goes the walk of faith with Jesus.
The only thing that makes it doable is that He can be trusted. As our family begins to go in directions that are new territory (in more ways that one), I rest on the fact that God has GOOD plans for my life. For Carter’s life. For the lives of my children. So if He is calling us to go somewhere, it is for our GOOD. Chances are we won’t even see the full blessing of this decision until looking back later on down the road. But isn’t that what faith is all about? Trusting in the goodness of God’s plan before you SEE the goodness of His plan.
Blogging has not been on my mind as much lately, so I’ve decided to take a break from the “experiments” until we get settled in our new state. Until then, I will use the blog to update on our Colorado journey. God has already been faithful in so many ways. Looking back it’s interesting to see how I was so confused why our house wouldn’t sell, especially with so many people coming to look at it. I know if it would have sold quickly, we would have bought quickly, and would not be as willing (or able) to hear God’s call. Financially He has allowed us to get rid of debt and save up money for this move, which as one point seemed an impossible task. He is bringing clarity about our roles at the Edge Church and allowed us to spend time with the staff at a conference here in our area. So it’s happening. The questions that still hung in the air as we committed to move our family are slowly being answered. One step at a time.
So there you have it! The Starks are moving to Denver, Colorado in the next few months! Looks like I will be doing these experiments with a mountain view from here on out.